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Saturday, April 9th, 2005
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6:34 am - Yay for Slash
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Fucking right!
How things have changed with baseball opening national anthems... In 1997 some old lady sang the national anthems now for the Blue Jays our anthems was played by a great guitarist... who else would it be??? It was slash... Man I was so turned on. I'm not sure what causes it exactly but whenever I hear the canadian national anthem.. I get all teary! I get embarassed when I get all boohooey in front of friends or family.
Just when I thought, "Finally! I'll be scratch free!!" until doofus looses his balence on the montior and falls off.. meanwhile falling on me and digging his claws into my arm... sigh... Oh well...
So yeah.. I was going to attempt to install star wars battlefront on this computer and as I was just going to do it I realized that .. Oh no cd 1 is in the good computer. So.. I think.. Meh can't hurt to turn it on and grab it.. If only the damn thing would turn on. I guess it's a sign that I should just wait before I kill this one too.. lol.
Someone came in our outside door earlier... again.... and it wasn't the folks upstairs... I swear there's a drunk man mistaking our house again.. I bet it's our neighbor, Leon. hahaha!!!
Well.. yay it's 6:40am.. and I am doing... NOTHING!!! The gym doesnt open until 8am on weekends... so Im not going to go until yeah um.. I know whats going on with dans parents.. I think they are coming down this weekend.. taking dan out and leaving molly dog with me. OoOo I luff the molly dog!!! I was going to take pictures but Nuuuuuu!!!
Anyways,
Going to have a smoke and..... wait for ppl to wake up and come online msn.
current mood:  awake
current music: Terrance eating lol
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| Saturday, March 5th, 2005
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2:42 am - Four Legged Creature
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Four Legged Creature
It has a head, with bright wide eyes;
it keeps you safe on those darkest nights;
when trouble is near, it perks its ears;
pacing in it's stall, softly nickering to it's friends
as the danger get's closer, it feels as though its life is about to end.
Sleeping in your bedroom, you hear it's restless call;
As you spring out of bed, and disappear into night fall;
jumping over obstacles, avoiding that snatching branch;
Opening the barn doors, no longer smelling like a ranch.
It's head springs out of the stall, to see you coming and sends a halting call.
As you look to your left and look to your right;
You see that amimal, eyes wide with fright.
It's mouth is foaming, it's eyes are red,
you jump 100 feet and smack your head;
Your four legged creature is now twisting within it's stall,
you want to scream but your tongue has shrivled into a ball;
it paces towards you,
you jump on your feet,
you hear a sudden barking as the animal leaps;
you make contact with it's eyes;
starting to think you should've stayed inside.
Your four legged friend jumps out in it's path,
rears up in the sky and stands in vein.
They fight, this really isn't a game..
the animal is bleeding and has been defeated once again,
your four legged friend, will always lend you a helping hand.
You stand up to see the real picture,
you cannot believe this four legged creature.
It saved your life as you kiss its muzzle.
It softly neighs and just wants to snuggle.
What would you do without this four legged friend..
you'd probably be six feet under surrounded by all your friends.
So save this creature, never let it die.
love and cherish it, it'll give you such pride.
(c) Amanda Downey - Cracknell
PS: The ending Ive been asked about already, " You'd probably be six feet under surrounded by all your friends " not buried with your friends.. but you under ground with all your friends above you, at your funeral.
I guess it could use a little more work but.. it just popped into my head.. so I wrote it down..
w00t.
--mandy
current mood:  bored
current music: Girls, Girls, Girls - Motley Crue
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| Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
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3:36 am - Photobucket
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| Monday, January 10th, 2005
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10:58 pm - .... stumbles in
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
Hmm... I guess I am a little bit late eh?? lol. Anyways... The computer has died completely. In order for us to come back online is if we get some new parts for the computer which from what we can see is going to be a little on the pricey side. So I may be mooching sweet internet time off my friends for a little while but they don't seem to mind at all.
So what's been new??
I am sick again with the stomach flu... Well more like food poisoning. The chicken is out to get me I tell you.
OHHH... Terrance (my kitty) has a neat breed history.... American Short Hair x Persian x Rabbit. Yes you read correctly.. Rabbit!!!! He's my cute little Bionic Bunny now!!!! :p
Nothing else is really new except things like.. Christmas morning I had the stomach flu really bad... The car got fixed... but the windshield is cracking.
Ya know... things get better but fall apart again right afterwards... lol.
Anyways.. thats about it... off i go to lay on bed now.
--Mandy
current mood:  weird
current music: Resident Evil.. PS2
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| Friday, December 17th, 2004
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1:33 pm - Sunshine Blocks Monitor Viewing
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Hello.
I haven't been around much.. Last time I posted was the beginning of December I believe. Dan & I ditched Rogers because they are assholes and they like to bill you for something your not even subscribed too constantly so we switched to Sympatico. So far it's working beautifully and we just hooked it up last night. So yeah.. Lots of snow around now which is great. We recieved about 10cm last night which is cool .. the uncool part is that the roads aren't snowy anymore. Im sure they were great to slide around on earlier this morning... :) Anyways...
Not too much to update on.
Terrance is growing significantly.. new pictures of him when we get him fixed and declawed within the next month or so. He is due.
He is about 5months old soon.
He is still psycho!!! lol
Anyways..
Im off to Niagra falls this weekend to go see family members that I havent seen in years. Unfortunatly Dan can't come along so he has to spend the weekend here alone with the cat. but at least the internet is back up and running so he won't be cut off from the world completely.
The sun is really shining now and I can hardly see the monitor and it is hurting my eyes.
Talk to ya laterz
--Mandy
current mood:  dorky
current music: Canadian Air Farce on TV
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| Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
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11:39 am - Switching Journals
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Hey Guys
I am deleting and getting away from Livejournal and switching over to Greatest Journal. I am known as Hardexsive please add me and I will add you. Eventually it will become a friends only journal but for now until settled in.. Its an everyone journal lol.
Thanks.
current mood: crazy
current music: papa raoch -blanket of fear
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| Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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11:59 pm - Another week
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Scheduale for this week:
Monday:
Normal class hours all day - get to watch pirates of the caribbean in last period. The Bermuda Triangle newspaper article is due.
Tuesday: Normal class hours all day - finish movie last period
Wednesday: Due to the literacy test.. I dont have to be in class until 11:25am
Thursday: Same deal as wednesday
Friday: Reg. class hours. and THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY...
Saturday: Well my parents go to the cottage, my sister goes out partying.. Im staying home with Nya to hand out candy.. then as soon as Im out.. IM gone for the night lol.
Sunday: HOMEWORK.
Lets see how this week turns out.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Progressive Trance 2k3 - First Edition CD2
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| Saturday, October 23rd, 2004
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2:11 am - huh?
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um na na na na na na na... im drunk. i have a headache and i feel slightly sick. lol. i want my beddd!!!
10 People You Are Closest With (NOT!!! In Order)
1. Dan
2. Michele
3. Russ
4. Sarah
5. Kayla
6. Hippie
7. Brent
8. Tim
9. Jesse
10. Kat
9 Things You're Looking Forward To
1. going to my first punk show
2. going to my first rave
3. falling asleep soon
4. my tattoo
5. more piercings
6. my gabber.ca hoodie
7. my west coast choppers hoodie
8. my ac/dc box set collection from hippie
9. next week being able to sleep in late due to literacy tests at denison
8 Things You Wear Daily
1. my redstar skater shoes
2. navel peircing
3. My spiked belt
4. My spiked bracelet
5. warm hoodie
6. my earphones
7. cigarette ashes
8. comfy jeans
7 Things That Annoy You
1. being picked on
2. wiggers
3. skanks
4. people who beat up on onthers smaller then them.. amy stupid skank.
5. slow computers
6. not having batteries for my discman
7. sleeping in way past first period
6 Things You Touch Every Day
1. Myself
2. Keyboard
3. Cigarettes
4. discman
5. my dog, nya
6. my tool cd
5 Things You Do Every Day
1. Go on my computer
2. walk my dog, nya
3. listen to music
4. eat resse puff cereal
5. be lazy
4 People You'd Want to Spend More Time or Hang out With
1. Dan
2. Jesse
3. Cathy
4. Karen
3 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over
1. Seabiscuit
2. The breakfast club
3. All monty python movies
2 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment (not of all time)
1. Dirty deeds - AC/DC
2. 1979 by smashing pumpkins
1 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With
1. Dan
Things you love about your body:
1. hair
2. my abs ;)
3. eyes
4. my cereal
Things you hate about your body:
1. bad hair days
2. ---
3. ---
4. ---
Things you like about your personality:
1. interesting
2. mysterious
3. cute
4. fiesty
Things you wish you could change about your personality:
1. Stop being close-minded? im open minded
2. my hornyness when drunk
3. being so damn cute.. (damn you dan)
4. wasnt such an evil tease
current mood:  drunk
current music: yellowcard - only one
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| Thursday, October 21st, 2004
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10:28 pm - Night Prowler
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Hello,
Wow this is actually going to be a worthwhile entry. Uhm I have been thinking alot lately and I really need to get my act together no more dicking around. Im 19 y/o now and I have responsibilites and I really need to get my act together by going to be at 11:30pm every school night and if I go out I be home for 9:30pm so that way I get some computer time to relax and etc.
I need to be getting up at 7am so I can have my shower and be walking out the door at 8:05am so I can be at school on time. No more of this sleeping in bullshit. I really need to be staying home and studying as well.. No more going out after school. That's what Friday and Saturday's are for and PA days.
I really need to get going with this part-time job thing so I can have some money for myself.
I also want to get back up and rolling at C.A.R.D because they called and want me to come back. I also may have found a riding barn in Aurora and they offer Dressage lessons.
So many things.. so little time.
I will get it done though.
Keep my chin up.
Until next time,
Have a good one!
--Mandy
current mood:  satisfied
current music: Progressive Trance 2k3 - First Edition CD2
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| Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
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2:44 pm - The Little White Horse
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It was under the white moon that I saw him,
The little white horse, with neck arched high in pride.
Lovely his pride, delicate, no taint of self
Staining the uncouncious innocence denied
Knowledge of good and evil, burden of days
Of shame crouched beneath the flail of memory.
No past for you, little white horse, no regret,
No future of fear in the silver forest --
Only the perfect now in the white moon-dappled ride.
A flower-like body fashioned all of light,
For the speed of light, yet momently at rest,
Balenced on the sheer knife-edge of perfection;
Perfection of grass silver upon the crest
Of the hill, before the scythe falls, snow in sun,
Of the shaken human spirit when god speaks
In his still small voice and for a breath of time
All is hushed; gone in a sigh, that perfection,
Leaving the sharp knife-edge turning slowly in the breast.
The raised hoof, the proud poised head, the flowing mane,
The supreme moment of stillness before the flight,
the moment of farewell, of wordless pleading
For rememberance of things lost to earthly sight --
The the half-turn under the trees, a motion
Fluid as the movement of light on water...
Stay, oh stay in the forest, little white horse!...
He is lost and gone and now I do not know
If it was a little white horse that I saw,
Or only a moonbeam astray in the silver night.
-Amanda Cracknell 2004
current mood:  chipper
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| Wednesday, October 13th, 2004
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12:07 am - creepy...
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i was just outside in the garage having a before bed smoke.. and my batteries die in my discman and because my left ear is partially making me deaf.. my right ear...
sounds like this:
voooommphhh...and i hear crickets... then vommphhh... crickets again.. then this.. static sound.. i hear this... scary creepy sound... like... dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... then static.. then... crickets.. then this ha ha ha and it stops.
I NEED A HUG!!!
current mood:  confused
current music: crickets....?
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| Sunday, October 10th, 2004
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2:45 pm - Gobble Gobble Gobble
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HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO WHOMEVER IT MAY CONCERN!!!!!
GOBBLE GOBBLE!!
current mood:  flirty
current music: Papa Roach - Getting away with murder!
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| Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
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8:40 pm - Why woman are crankier...
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Why Women Get Cranky
We start to "bud" in our blouses at 9 or 10 years old only to find anything that comes in contact with those tender, blooming buds hurts so bad it brings us to tears. Enter the almighty, uncomfortable training bra contraption the boys in school will snap until we have calluses on our backs.
Next, we get our periods in our early to mid-teens (or sooner). Along with those budding boobs, we now bloat, we cramp, we get the hormone crankies, have to wear little mattresses between our legs or insert tubular, packed cotton rods in places we didn't even know we had.
Our next little rite of passage (premarital or not) is having sex for the first time, which is about as much fun as having a ramrod push your uterus through your nostrils (IF he did it right and didn't end up with his little cart before his horse), leaving us to wonder what all the fuss was about.
Then it's off to Motherhood where we learn to live on dry crackers and water for a few months so we don't spend the entire day leaning over Brother John. Of course, amazing creatures that we are (and we are), we learn to live with the growing little angels inside us steadily kicking our innards night and day, making us wonder if we're having Rosemary's Baby. Our once flat bellies now look like we swallowed a watermelon whole and we pee our pants every time we sneeze. (The latter condition never goes away, either...lots of times, neither does the former.)
When the big moment arrives, the dam in our blessed Nether Regions will invariably burst right in the middle of the mall and we'll waddle with our big cartoon feet, moaning in pain all the way to the ER. Then it's huff and puff and beg to die while the OB says, "Please stop screaming, Mrs. Hearmeroar. Calm down and push. Just one or (or 10) good push," warranting a strong, well-deserved impulse to punch the bastard (and hubby) square in the nose for making us cram a wiggling, mushroom-headed 10 lb. bowing ball through a keyhole.
After that, it's time to raise those angels, only to find that when all that "cute" wears off, the beautiful little darlings morph into walking, jabbering, wet, gooey, snot-blowing, life-sucking little poop machines.
The teen years. Need I say more?
The kids are almost grown now and we women hit our voracious sexual prime in our mid-30's to early 40's while hubby had his somewhere around his 18th birthday (which just happens to be the reason all that early, hot, man sex got you pregnant in the first place).
Now we hit the grand finale: Menopause. The Grandmother of all womanhood. It's either take the HRT and chance cancer in those now seasoned "buds" or the aforementioned Nether Regions, or sweat like a hog in July, wash your sheets and pillowcases daily and bite the head off of anything that moves.
Now, you ask WHY women seem to be more spiteful than men when men get off so easy INCLUDING the icing on life's cake: Being able to pee in the woods without soaking their socks...
Now, I love being a woman but "Womanhood" would make the Great Ghandi a tad crabby.
Women are the weaker sex?
Yeah, right. Bite me.
current mood:  full
current music: dishes clanking together in the sink
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| Sunday, July 11th, 2004
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11:46 pm - [001.] Venting Adventure
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Lately I have been a pretty happy, easy going, laid back girl. I have been social with others and I haven't been avoiding my friends and being a bitch. I know the odd' time within' the last month I have kind of become a bitch at certain random times.. But the mood really hasn't stuck around to long. Maybe 10-15minutes at the most. Anyways.. Latetly when I was out earlier on today I was feeling good because I had been outside during the day tanning and making myself non deathly looking. That usually perks me up. I got my hair cut nice and short so it would spike up nice and behave which improved my mood for the time being.
Well I was at my friends earlier today playing Pokemon and watching some TV and stuff.. I kind of fell into another depression faze which hasn't happened in quite a while. I am not too sure what brought it on.. something sub counciously I believe. Anyways.. I was starting to become harsh on myself and feeling like a real idiot and not saying anything to anoyone and spacing out completely (partly due to the disturbed cd that was on) and going in my own little world.
From my recent discovery with being horribly, unhealthy obsessed with riding and horses that it was affecting my mood and motivation to do anything.. basically I wasn't interested to do anything with anyone unless it involved horses..and if it didn't I would be extremely frumpy and not nice to be around.
I am needing to find a new hobby but because it doesn't have anything to do with horses I am having a hard time convincing myself that this could be a good thing for me.. mentally. For a while I have been thinking about getting into the Hobbie of card collecting (magic) which my friend, Hippie is involved in and he has kind of influenced me to get into Magic... Or the other Hobbie idea would be RC (remote controlled) because Dan has alot of experiance in that field and I want to be more interested in things he likes aswell... etc etc.
I just have these random mood swings where I don't give a flying fuck about my life or how it turns out. I care about those around me but not myself... I know my main focus should be about myself and not entirely on the people I love as friends or in a relationship (dan). Maybe it's because too the fact that friends of mine that I have talked to online just aren't the same anymore.. or people whom I wanted to have a good friendship with but it just doesn't seem to be dishing out that way...
I miss riding alot.
I miss the horses alot.
I miss smelling the barn.
I miss the smell of the tack.
I miss feeling the wind in my face and the sound of the horses power beneath me.
It feels like apart of me has been torn apart so quick and theirs nothing I can do about it. It really sucks.. Im not sure what I am going to do and how I am going to get myself out of it...
All in all..
I guess I will just take things at a time.
My chedder and potato smiley face things are ready.. So I am going to go munch down on them...
Until next update.
--Mandy
current mood:  blank
current music: Oil boiling away
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| Saturday, July 10th, 2004
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10:03 pm - * Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Hi.. I had sex on the beach 3 times... in an hour.. if you get my drift... I am soooo... wow a flying smoke.. yayyyy!!! he he he... I am ... drunk.. well tipsy well.. drunk.. well yay.... :)
I had 3 Orange sex on the beaches.., (my fav) in an hour.. he he.. i know it's not that great but for me.. thats pretty good. I am... tipsy.. and Im... holding a smoke in my mouth and trying to smoke it yet its not lit... dumb me.
Before I got drunk ..Dan & I changed the oil and the oil filter on the car then gave it a nice wash.. So it's running very nice now :)
ha ha i just called for a lighter and dan thought I said spider.. and ran.. very cute!!! ahhh... players & number 7's mixed together...
so yea... dan is a really great guy I never thought I would think of guys the way i do him... its not the alcahol talking.. i get really affectionate and friendly when i am half cocked... more friendly then when i am sober... that doesnt make sense...i just tossed the lighter back to dan and it bounced off the lamp and yeah.. yayyy.. He is a great dude.. He doesn't pressure me into anything If im not comfortable with a certain thing that is fine with him.. I mean I was so anti social and very quiet before I met him and now I am confident in myself and with others.. in a social way.. He's very cool and he has made me comfortable with my body, mind and spirit... yum
annywayss...
back to ssmmookkinnn'....
-mandy
Im on MSN come talk to me.. please.
current mood: crazy
current music: MEN IN BACK MOVIE
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| Monday, April 26th, 2004
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3:08 am - * I know you're curious...
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| Thursday, April 22nd, 2004
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1:42 am - * I didn't steal.. I "Borrowed"
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[x]HAve boyfriend/girlfriend:yes, yes I do!! ;)
[x]Crush: Nope
[x]Do you love anyone right now: Yes
[x]Have you ever been in love: Yes
[x]Ever had sex:Yes
[x]How many hearts have you broken:Two or three maybe..
[x]How many people broke your heart: Uhm.. One.. I think..
[x]So what’s your significant other like: Wouldn't you like to know?
[x]Do you go more by looks or personality: Personality but Goatee's and long hair .. -puddle-
[x]Ever kiss a friend: Friendly sakes.
[x]Are you still friends: Yes.. Why not?!
[x]Do you smoke: All the freaking time!
[x]How about weed: Meh.. Sometimes.
[x]Acid: No
[x]Ecstasy: about once a year.. lol
[x]Crack, heroin, anything else: nope
[x]Are you a sissy who drinks Mike’s Hard Lemonade and wine coolers: Sometimes.. Depends on my mood :)
[x]Prefer beer or liquor: Both
[x]Last time you got some: and again.. wouldnt you like to know.. lol.. harder baby harder
WOULD YOU EVER
[x]Bungee jump: at wonderland
[x]Skydive: planning too...
[x]Swim with dolphins: yes
[x]scuba dive: yes
[x]Go rock climbing: Went when I was attending Denison.
[x]Change your religion: I am my own freaking religion.
[x]Turn your back on your friends for personal gain: Depends..
[x]Steal a friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend: No thanks.. If I didn't get em before hand then Im not interested..
[x]Lie to the police: Once
[x]Run from the police: Once
[x]Speed away from the police: Nope
[x]Walk up to a total stranger and kiss them: I really don't find an interest in that.
[x]Be an exotic dancer: Nobody could offer me enough money to convince me to do that!!
[x]Streak: lol sometimes it's fun..
FRIENDS
[x]Best friend(s): Michele
[x]Known the longest: Michele
[x]Wish you talked to more than you do: Trent/Big JC/ FriskierBizkit
[x]How many friends do you think you have: doesnt matter
[x]How many do you actually hang out with: uh.. 3?
[x]Who drives you insane: no comment
[x]Ever lose a good friend because you took it to the next level: Nah
HAVE YOU EVER
[x]Flashed someone: Yes
[x]Told the person you liked how you felt: Yes
[x]Gotten really REALLY wasted: With Claire, Yes
[x]Skateboarded:..and broke my bum
[x]Skinny dipped: yes
[x]Stolen anything from a store: Borrowed!!!
[x]Kissed someone of the same sex: yes
[x]Been to a concert: underground punk shows
[x]Been to another country: lol.. nevermind
[x]Talked back to an adult: yeah
[x]Given money to some homeless person: yeah and I got a keychain out of the deal!!
[x]Tried to kill yourself: in the past
[x]Cried to get out of trouble:yeah im a whimp lol
[x]kissed a friend’s brother/sister: nope.. oh wait.. yes..
THE LAST THING
[x]You ate: Sandwhich
[x]You drank: Apple Juice
[x]The last place you went: The Barn
[x]Last thing you bought: Smokes... like a month ago.
[x]Last person you saw: My dad
[x]Last person you talked to online: Dan
[x]Last person you hugged: Dan
[x]Last song you heard: Hard House in the UK
[x]Do you like cows: Moooooooo!!!
[x]Do the voices talk only to you: yes and tell me funny jokes
[x]Are you straight: Open minded
[x]Are you short: Nope.. 5'11 my friend
[x]Do you own a hot pink shirt: ew.. id kill myself
[x]Do you like Marilyn Manson: yes
[x]Did you ever touch someone else’s no-no spot: he he
[x]Do you shop at Hot Topic: yep
[x]Do you remember your dreams:sometimes
[x]Can people read you like a book: lol sometimes
[x]Do you talk alot: when im hyper or im stoned
[x]Are you afraid of clowns: Hell yes.
[x]Can you drive: Florch Blue Cheese!!!
[x]Are you an only child: nope
ooo wasn't that fun? ... lol
Night.
current mood: content
current music: Hard House in the UK
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